Life is unpredictable.......

Well...it's been a while for myself to feel quite uncontrollable lately..

due to stressness in my position nw,mood swing after the operation..

keep missing her,some relation matters,some family matters...

and so on.........

wondering what's my life going to be.

wondering if i could tell myself i am leaving everyone behind

going to a place where i could really be myself

there's no one knows who i am in that place...

a place where all the green grasses are...all the lambs around..

laying on a big fields when im unhappy...hearing the voice of the nature...

early in the morning,waking up...

feed my doggie (the only companion) , do my chores ,

feed my livestocks, go to small groceries shop in town ..

buy some fertilizer .. get small shopping for foods ...

get some tomatoes seeds,soil it... (business- yea , for living)

grow some potatoes....grow some sweet potatoes (daily food)

grow some corns ...

raise some chicken,sheep....... (for living-no matter for own foods,or selling)

im having my small home sweet home by the farm .

doing the same routine everyday...

no need to worry about money .no need to worry about lifestyle ..

when have time, read some books by the bench . enjoying the nice breeze of

the green green grass .... or .... get my fishing rope , ready some picnic stuff ,

went to the lake nearby , fish myself ...

when the night falls, the enjoyment was going to a small cowboy bar around my area ,

drink some nice shooters, chill out with some jerks out there .

walk on the road . one word " safe "

a peacefull town . with no criminal . no offence .

how nice .....

passing all the neighbours,

ppl were smilling , while saying

" HI neighbours,how it's going?we're having a good nights yea "

How sweet if we have people who sends us greeting n smiles from their hearts..

so my days was filled ...

How i wish human was just like that . life was just like that ...

there's no war, there's no lies , there's no problem with mankind ,

everyone has filled their live with very simple simple n simple road to move on

how i wish i am like tht as well...

* Qi-Er *