Judgement

Now then i realise that from what i did with the past

it's more and more pain when the punishment arrive

For what u've done,you will received punishment in thousand

of pain rather than 1 pain u give others...

the pain you can't accept....is the pain from god.

it's not that i mean god doesn't forgive us.

god did,but...we're not wake.we still do it again n again..

i awake now.i realise now.

I can't bear the pain anymore...

all i can do is ask for forgiveness.i rather ppl hurt me...

i wouldn't hurt ppl anymore.

only myself know how pain itz when u received it in the hand

of god...god sees....god knows....

ask for forgiveness is not easy...i wonder until where i will be taken..

im sorry for what i've done in the past,

realise that it's too late....but i will pray for everything..

so that everyone get blessed...

*qi-er*

Happy birthday to Yen Yen ^^

Happy birthday to my best kai ka lou aka laopo yen yen

Happy can past a lovely bday blast with you :)

* Lovely picture ~~~ *

my present for her :

Absolute Mandrin :)

With loves

*hugs*

Qi-Er

A thought of Wedding

Marriage

Happy forever is good,but wht if Unhappy forever ?

I did saw a lot of my friends getting married lately...

[ O-M-G.i'm 24 jor this year ]

no more teenage dream :(

Realise one and two and three of my friends getting

pregnant,born babies,have nice family, im so envy ...

i keep wondering when will i have the moment like that ?

i've always been hoping to have my own family

have a lovely husband who cares me

have few kids be with me

have a nice house ( a warm one is enough )

i've been dreaming since.... age 17 ..

my mr.right was with me that time,but...

it was a sad story in the end

having a such bad ending,making me felt

lost of trust in marriage life soon...

i always hate myself for giving myself soo big hope

but then when i felt,who knows?

i always met the one who i feels is myself the one

who hoping so much to married...

WTF with Married life with me?

what the fears im having actually?

im born out from a broken family....

pitying myself ? for not having a nice family ?

for not being love n cares ?

what the heck im hoping so much in married ?

My brain been thinking when im going to wed wed wed

since age 17 again !!!

but i do notice ,

many ppl end up teribble after tht WED !

and why the heck i still sooooooo wanting to WEDDING !!

envy ?

what if ......

themselves have their own relationship problem that i dun knw?

that the fact is they're showing their happy face out in their

shout out Twitter,FB,MSN,SMS but the "peria" part

they finish it into their own stomach??

I don't believe that BEFORE married and AFTER married

the problems that occur will SETTLE itself!

they'll be problems everywhere when there's human!

Money is first,second is attitudes,third is babies!

I've saw so much of broken families issue.Friends from

happily ever after become singles all sudden,the kids having

their own step-mama and step-papa,some of the kids even

been taken by their grand-mama coz of their father n mother

separated and no ones wana take the kids with them.

So pathetics.

The real reason behind,no ones know...and no ones to be blames.

I'm envying the nicest part,of being a beautiful brides....

taking the nicest pictures with your loves ones,in a very nice

view,where you can show out ur smiles,that u felt u're the happiest

woman on earth!even universe ..... *at that moment*

when you step inside a beautiful garden,all your friends was there

clapping,watching over you,showing you're honour of arrivals...

when all the photographers snapping the pictures like paparazzi,

where your prince charming there,standing in front,looking at you,

smilling,seems like waiting for you,to come into his arms.....

i wonder when will that time arrives..

i wonder will i have the same wedding....

the key to happiest moment , is Money .

without money,you only can have a wery simple wedding.

A wedding without pictures,a wedding without friends

sharing all the happiness with you,a wedding without wedding gown...

Does it matter anyways?

Think for it.....

a realistics womans,or a woman who have this kind of dreams

will felt this is once a time in life ... so she felt a wedding without

everything sets is not a wedding ...

while..

a woman who only treasure his man

will felt as long as she is with the man she loves,without nicest

wedding gown,nicest photoman,nicest dinner reception , is not a matter ....

as long as the man she's chosen is the right one,everything doesn't matter anymore..

It's hard to get a man that can move with you until the end of your life.

so when he's the right one,shouldn't we being appreciate? :)

p/s reader : i just sharing my thought,if you don't like my

thought,u can dun read this post,but anyway,thanks for finishing it

if not you wont read this last msg from me :)

*Qi-Er*

April 29th

its been a while that i didn't upload anything on my blog :)
hahaha...times passing so fast!It's the end of April already...
Mom ,Irene,Granny birthday had just passed

Many things happen lately,especially in my relation..
been tired arguing all the times...but im not giving up yet...
and i'm praying for good things will happen soon :)

Thanks to my dear yen yen for keep me company when im
almost drain in the "longkang" .... lol ...

and i really really in need to have my god back to me
I know wht everyone tell me is right.
God always be with us no matter where we r....
but,i still havent got it .
Maybe's not my time yet ...

Yen was trying to help me out on this.
Lets see if it's fated for me to accept another coming up,
or....will this god accept me....

Granny going for an operation soon
I have to accompany her,taking leave soon..worry of cos got..
but pretending im ok in front of everyone...
hahahahahahaha
yea,thts me :)

Even joking that my granny super geng.
Been on operation twice cos of cholestrol

everything going fine soon.i believe :)

* why iphone couldn't give me blogging directly ah? *

*Qi Er*

Early proposal in my brain ;}

Tht's the word in my head now

Im super early headaching about the bday suprise
im gonna give to my Mr.Right ;}

Supposingly was on the plan...but then...there's
one big occasion hits the right day on my planning!
Looks like gotta change planning again.......
Geeezzz !
Maybe change location or how .
Wht's the right planning to give him this time har?
I'm spending more than thousands this time!OMG!
Im crazy .........

Plus!! Valentine is coming . wht should i plan for ?
Aiya~~~now only think about his bday...
Forget that Valentine is around the corner as well !!
Oh no~~~~



*Qi-Er*

Life is unpredictable.......

Well...it's been a while for myself to feel quite uncontrollable lately..

due to stressness in my position nw,mood swing after the operation..

keep missing her,some relation matters,some family matters...

and so on.........

wondering what's my life going to be.

wondering if i could tell myself i am leaving everyone behind

going to a place where i could really be myself

there's no one knows who i am in that place...

a place where all the green grasses are...all the lambs around..

laying on a big fields when im unhappy...hearing the voice of the nature...

early in the morning,waking up...

feed my doggie (the only companion) , do my chores ,

feed my livestocks, go to small groceries shop in town ..

buy some fertilizer .. get small shopping for foods ...

get some tomatoes seeds,soil it... (business- yea , for living)

grow some potatoes....grow some sweet potatoes (daily food)

grow some corns ...

raise some chicken,sheep....... (for living-no matter for own foods,or selling)

im having my small home sweet home by the farm .

doing the same routine everyday...

no need to worry about money .no need to worry about lifestyle ..

when have time, read some books by the bench . enjoying the nice breeze of

the green green grass .... or .... get my fishing rope , ready some picnic stuff ,

went to the lake nearby , fish myself ...

when the night falls, the enjoyment was going to a small cowboy bar around my area ,

drink some nice shooters, chill out with some jerks out there .

walk on the road . one word " safe "

a peacefull town . with no criminal . no offence .

how nice .....

passing all the neighbours,

ppl were smilling , while saying

" HI neighbours,how it's going?we're having a good nights yea "

How sweet if we have people who sends us greeting n smiles from their hearts..

so my days was filled ...

How i wish human was just like that . life was just like that ...

there's no war, there's no lies , there's no problem with mankind ,

everyone has filled their live with very simple simple n simple road to move on

how i wish i am like tht as well...

* Qi-Er *

Party Play 11.1.11

Party Play Cafe located in Lintas nearby Salim Restaurant

"What We Play is Life"

Nice Slogan =D

* A part of the Menu *

Fish N Chips :)

Classic Lamb Chop

A sneak peak of my baby :)
So adorable alwayssss

And here , Me . the nerd version

I look weird =,=

Enjoy my 11.1.11 with Party Play dinner.

Then catch up with Paranormal Activities II @ Suria 9pm

After that, Uppi hangover until midnight .

It's been so long didn't went out for some night crawling

happeyy =)

* Qi Er *